Holding onto feelings I truly treasure has always been my weakest point. Now even watching a tv drama with romance scenes in it will cause emotional pain in me. It would constantly remind me how much the past has been hurtful, and the heart pains whenever its been reminded.
Let it go —- this is a constant reminder my brain should remind the heart always.
Sometimes I wish, I have this someone to tell how much I’m struggling inside.
Peer pressure shouldn’t be of any influence at all, so many say. I just need someone to wake up this idea of mine to succumb to this vicious peer pressure.
How do you expect someone else to love you when you don’t love yourself in the first place?
Been doing a lot of thinking lately, with so much time spent with myself and people who actually mattered. It made me realized how much I’ve lost myself over the past 1 year plus.
Enclosed and locked myself in my little world of emotions, I’ve blocked out every other beings who were concerned for me. The people I actually want to share my little world with are actually the ones who aren’t that interested. I focused so much on myself and only the people I want to care for that I shut everyone else out.
I’m really glad pole opens up my world. It used to be just an interest, a way to distress and run away from issues I don’t wanna face, just for that few hours. But slowly and gradually, it’s changing every little bit of my life.
I’m taking baby steps to love myself more, by being less critical to myself. Expectations for love and friendships have isolated myself. It’s time to open up to what’s around me and stop being so critical to myself. Love people around me for being who they are; love things for the way it turn out and endings for giving new beginnings a chance.
Only then, I can expect love to come to me.
Baby, we were never in love. We were playing with fire from the start. Sometimes, following what the heart feels can be dangerous and it just proves us right.
We were never in love, we were just madly infatuated with each other. And when it dies down, we are left with nothing but hurt, pain. For we started something which was never meant to be.
If there’s something you want, but it’s high risk, high reward — take that chance before you’re no longer able to. Rejection feels bad, failure feels awful, but regret feels the worst. Disappointment that we passed on something and the train left the station without us. A dream, a girl, a guy, words left unspoken – you can erase the possibility of having these regrets down the road, by taking a chance and at least knowing if it was or wasn’t meant to be.
But I would rather to have not taken the chance at all, for our “at least we tried” wasn’t a good enough try for me.
If you keep building these walls
Brick by brick tower so tall
Soon I won’t see you at all
‘Til the concrete angel falls
I knew who you were from the start
But now I don’t know who you are
Soon there will be nothing at all
‘Til the concrete angel falls
Concrete Angel - Gareth Emery ft. Christina Novelli
So I held the thought, collected my luggage, exited the arrival gates, headed straight for the cab queue and left the airport.
Not looking back at all cause I know, memories will surface once again if I did.
And I stood there, thinking what was going through your thoughts then when you were looking at the same view. It doesn’t matter what were your thoughts then now, cause it was all then. The passion, the affection were all but history. I have yet to come to terms with it. This whole hk trip was nothing but a reminder to how everything started. We shared no physical memory of this place together. Somehow, emotional memory works just as well. You have no idea, how much you are in relation to every single part of my life.